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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

"Mix a little foolishness with your serious plans. It is lovely to be silly at the right moment." - Horace (65-8BC)

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Well it has been a week since I began this adventure and it is already paying off. :o) I have met another blogger who seems to be in the same place in life that I am. It is very, very cool. My life philosophy: There is a reason for every moment of our lives and if we just let things happen, wonderful and unusual things can happen. I am thrilled with where my life is headed, new friends, old friends, and a brand new Me.

Does anyone remember being seventeen? God I do! It feels like it was yesterday. There are good and bad memories and at the same time they are all great! I do not regret any of it. Insanely fast cars, freedom, craziness, and stupidity. (Those last two are not the same, as any sane person will know.) An absolutely incredible love of life and I did not even realize it. I am glad I know it now because it makes me think twice when I get to uptight with my daughter… I mean really? What was I doing at seventeen? I had run away from home, moved in with my boyfriend’s family and was insanely in love. We did no more than my daughter does or any teenager. Life taught us hard lessons, but we grew up mostly intelligent and mostly sane.

Growing up in the late 1970s was interesting. I would have graduated high school in 1982. The drug/sex revolution was generally over and as teenagers we ushered in the brand new media/digital era. When I was seventeen my boyfriend owned the very first Atari. I was eighteen when the first video aired on MTV; that was an interesting night. I remember the day Elvis died, but not the day President Reagan got shot.

(Thank you Karen, I didn’t hug the tree but I did embrace nature :o) )

Monday, June 29, 2009

A Monday Like Any Other

Monday, June 29, 2009

Well darn, this is the third time I have started this now and I guess I am done. The words are just not coming out right and the mosquitos are getting bad, ugh. So I will wait until tomorrow.


Sunday, June 28, 2009

A Wonderfully Relaxing Day

So this is what I did all day, Mark Twain Lake, Florida, MO Cemetery, and the Union Covered Bridge

What a beautiful morning!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

“Maturity cannot be forced; it takes time, patience, and nurturing. Nature is a great teacher, showing us that everything develops at the perfect time.” (The Secret Power of Yoga, Nichala Joy Devi 252.)

St. Augustine was founded in 1565 and is the oldest continuously occupied city in the United States. Shortly before 1900 Henry Flagler brought the railroad and it became a resort for the wealthy elite of the United States. In the 1960s it was the sight of many famous sit-ins and protests in the battle for the passing of Civil Rights Act. It has a population of about 12,000, smaller than Kirksville. Many historical relics still remain the Castillo de San Marco, a Spanish fort built in 1672, and the oldest wooden school house built before 1716. Pictures below are from and

Saturday, June 27, 2009

"I restore myself when I'm alone." M.M.

Saturday June 27, 2009

Yep, today was pretty much what I thought it would be… Up early, started laundry and the cleaning by 10am was done by 1pm… Read a lot, picked out a couple of historical fiction books for the beach: Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clarke, Portia Rosenberg and Lord John and the Private Matter by Diana Gabaldon. Siesta at 2ish, then took the movie back, got rid of the bad art work, vacuumed the truck and went for a walk. All in all not to awful boring :o)

Oh! and I got an email from an interesting artist. I am not quite sure about pursuing it but it is outside of my normal realm, so it is intriguing. Art, fast cars, small towns, old architecture, galleries, ballroom dance and swing! All found in one place…to incredible not to check into it.

All of this talk about art makes me remember why I loved school. Constantly having to do something, learn something, and thinking about something that matters to me. Oh damn! I wish I had thought of this earlier, but I can still do it…I should check out the art and history of St. Augustine. Ok so you will be hearing a lot about it over the next week and a half. I am going to do some research and write about it here…

So I must go, plenty of work to do.

Friday, June 26, 2009

"It's all make believe, isn't it?" Marilyn Monroe

Friday June 26, 2009
Well it is Friday. I do not know if that is a good or bad thing. Now I have nothing to do with ten hours of my day! Laundry and cleaning the house takes about four hours total. Gee I wish I could sleep in. Sometimes it is just a pain in the rump being a morning person! :o)
So it is interesting how things sometimes just play out in our lives. I have been single now for a little over a year and to be totally honest I absolutely love it. I can honestly say I have learned more about myself in the last year than I ever thought possible. Here is a list of the major points:
1) I am a street smart Lady.
2) I am an educated Lady.
3) I am a terrific Mother.
4) I am a fantastic Lover.
5) I am a sexy Lady.
6) I am a beautiful Lady.
7) There is a purpose to my life.
8) I must always take the time to listen to what is going on and then move in the direction my soul leads all is what it is.
I think this is a list I will continue to add too.
I still am not sure about moving to Ohio. It scares me in ways but in others it is so exciting. I worry about leaving Lauren here by herself. I think that is what scares me more than anything else. I am not sure if I can do that. I suppose the only thing I can do is let her try. At some point you have to kick them out of the nest and let them fly. She just does not seem ready. Although, who am I too judge? What did I do? I ran away from home. I survived. Lauren has survival skills and I suppose that is all she needs. It is just really scary. I remember what life was like at that point in my life. Well, at least she still has her parents. I did not have that. She can come home if she needs to. So, I will just let her try her wings. She is smart, resourceful, and loving; I am sure she will manage and learn so very much.
I have decided that I need to do something a bit more meaningful with my life. I just have a hard time actually doing something. So I will make a statement here and you all can see whether or not I actually take action. Maybe if I put it out there for the world to see I will actually do something about it. I would like to either work a few hours over the weekend at the Art Gallery or doing hospice work than sit around here going stir crazy. So I will email Judy and Dr. DeLancey’s friend about hospice before Sunday…
Damn, I have got to find a different job!!!! Something that requires brain usage!!! Just checking my email at school makes me remember where I am… Understand, I love small towns but this one…they just seem so backward…Maybe I am an elitist at heart.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I hate days like today

Thursday June 25, 2009
Sometimes I wonder why I let these things bother me so much. I much prefer not hearing about my supposed life through the mouth of someone who would not even begin to know anything about it. Jesus freaking christ, if you are so moved on then why am I still the topic of every blog/comment/tweet. If I talked about you as much you talk about me, most people would get the idea that I liked you or something. Must you degrade and humiliate us in your world in order to feel better about yourself? I no longer care what your opinion of my life is. I cared for too long and it is irrelevant to my life. Life is too short to worry about how much you hate me and my family. I know what I did was right. I know I am right. I have moved past it why can you not? I hope this is the last time I bitch about this, but it probably will not be…unfortunately.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

The wild and exciting life of a biker chick!

Today was much the same as yesterday. Grateful to have a job, thrilled to be going to Florida. Too tired to write.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

"I'm okay with all or any of it now"

I am a forty-five year young woman. I feel as young as I did at seventeen; although my body tells me differently. I do all the stupid stuff I should not do; I smoke, I drink, and I have an occasional roll in the sack with a guy I will never see again. Damn, I am sorry but I do not hurt anyone but myself so leave me alone about it. I know I should exercise regularly but I do not. I am working on losing forty pounds and it is not going all that well. I read about yoga but do not practice it yet. Nevertheless, I am beautiful, graceful, intelligent, wild, and passionate. This blog is about me, plain and simple; a place where I can learn to be me. A place where I can just let “emerge what is there in each moment, day by day, and I try not to constrain myself to any one thing in particular.”

The date today is June 23, 2009. I am happy. It’s late and I should be in bed, but I am tired of sleep-walking my way through life. As gratefully as I could muster I went to work at 7am and clung to the knowledge that it was only until 3pm. Got home in the sweltering heat and was encouraged that an old friend emailed me. A bit later was kind of intrigued by a car racing, artist and who sounds like might prove to be interesting conversationalist.

Life is good. I am happy to be me today. I am thankful that I will soon be enjoying a wonderful vacation on sunny beaches.