"It's all make believe, isn't it?" Marilyn Monroe

Friday June 26, 2009
Well it is Friday. I do not know if that is a good or bad thing. Now I have nothing to do with ten hours of my day! Laundry and cleaning the house takes about four hours total. Gee I wish I could sleep in. Sometimes it is just a pain in the rump being a morning person! :o)
So it is interesting how things sometimes just play out in our lives. I have been single now for a little over a year and to be totally honest I absolutely love it. I can honestly say I have learned more about myself in the last year than I ever thought possible. Here is a list of the major points:
1) I am a street smart Lady.
2) I am an educated Lady.
3) I am a terrific Mother.
4) I am a fantastic Lover.
5) I am a sexy Lady.
6) I am a beautiful Lady.
7) There is a purpose to my life.
8) I must always take the time to listen to what is going on and then move in the direction my soul leads all is what it is.
I think this is a list I will continue to add too.
I still am not sure about moving to Ohio. It scares me in ways but in others it is so exciting. I worry about leaving Lauren here by herself. I think that is what scares me more than anything else. I am not sure if I can do that. I suppose the only thing I can do is let her try. At some point you have to kick them out of the nest and let them fly. She just does not seem ready. Although, who am I too judge? What did I do? I ran away from home. I survived. Lauren has survival skills and I suppose that is all she needs. It is just really scary. I remember what life was like at that point in my life. Well, at least she still has her parents. I did not have that. She can come home if she needs to. So, I will just let her try her wings. She is smart, resourceful, and loving; I am sure she will manage and learn so very much.
I have decided that I need to do something a bit more meaningful with my life. I just have a hard time actually doing something. So I will make a statement here and you all can see whether or not I actually take action. Maybe if I put it out there for the world to see I will actually do something about it. I would like to either work a few hours over the weekend at the Art Gallery or doing hospice work than sit around here going stir crazy. So I will email Judy and Dr. DeLancey’s friend about hospice before Sunday…
Damn, I have got to find a different job!!!! Something that requires brain usage!!! Just checking my email at school makes me remember where I am… Understand, I love small towns but this one…they just seem so backward…Maybe I am an elitist at heart.
Nite…